My Feminist Idol

It’s been a while, but I’m back! As some of you may know, my computer crashed a little bit ago, and that’s left me with limited online capabilities.Yes, I have a phone, and that’s generally what I tweet through and post to Tumblr, but for everything else, I prefer a more complete and dedicated machine.

Anyway, that’s all taken care of now. So as I work to recover and transfer my files (and finish writing the Proposition series), I thought I’d take a moment to bring you something new, and maybe somewhat unexpected here.

I am a feminist. That probably makes some of you nod your head and think, “Obviously. Why even bring it up?” Others might think more along the lines of, “Who’s she kidding? This slut is the exact opposite of a feminist!”

Those of the first thought may be interested in the rest of this little article, but you already get it. You can skip the rest if you want. For everyone else, though, maybe I should explain.

How is it possible for a sex-starved, predominately “sub,” cock-worshiping, orgasm-crazed slut/vixen/whore/whatever-else-you-want-to-call-me to even identify as a feminist? I mean, isn’t one of the big rallying cries of feminism the desire for women to not be seen as sex objects? Yet here I am, seducing guys one after the other, with no real committed relationship for over a decade, sharing tales of my one-night stands, my threesomes and orgies, my gangbangs, and even sharing the occasional picture of my flesh for strangers to delight in!

You may have a point.

Here’s the thing, though. This is my choice. Let me say that again. This is MY choice. I’m not this way because this patriarchal, misogynistic culture has given me the role of “fucktoy,” and left me no other real option of behavior or lifestyle. I don’t fuck a guy because that’s the only way I can think of to get him to like me. I don’t fuck multiple guys because I want them all to like me. I don’t get down on my knees and suck cocks because of any penis-envy or because I can’t deny the inherent power contained within a dick. I do these things because I WANT to. I LIKE fucking! I enjoy it more than just about anything else in this world. I want more and more of it because orgasms feel good.

That doesn’t mean that any other part of me or my life is made lesser. In addition to my body, I have a brain, I have a personality, I have opinions, and thoughts, and likes and dislikes. And everything I have is just as valid as everything everyone else has, be you man, woman, or somewhere in between.

In fact, my sexual life EMPOWERS me. It really does. It reminds me that I am in control of my own life. To be honest, the ease with which I can use my sexuality to manipulate others (particularly men) only reinforces that I am not a lesser being than they are.

So what’s my point here? Honestly, I can’t say. To those who care one way or the other about feminism, I’ve either impressed or offended you. Knowing many of you who read this, I can say most likely aren’t offended. Those who don’t care, still don’t. There’s no real gain for me here.

I just felt I had to be clear on this point.

A friend recently directed me to an interview with Angela White. If you don’t know who she is, go to your favorite porn site and search her name. I don’t watch enough porn to have a favorite, really, but if you ever ask me, she’s at the top of my list. Not just because she’s beautiful, of course… though have you fucking SEEN her? She also runs her own site, directs her own videos, makes her own decisions about her career, etc. She’s in charge. Does she earn her living off of men who beat off to her? Pretty much, yeah. But she’s the one in charge.

Anyway, this interview article, which I’ll link to below, had this one bit that really touched something in me:

My gangbang is one of the best things I have ever done. Period. I was euphoric afterwards, I was able to have my sexual fantasy fulfilled on my own terms and it was cathartic and validating to be so desired and ravished…. It was a dream come true. The thing I actually remember most about the day was how confident I felt afterwards. I felt like I could do anything, that no challenge was too great, and that feeling has stayed with me.

I would never have been able to put it so simply and elegantly, but that’s very much how I’ve felt ever since I started really letting myself enjoy my sexuality. And it has grown with every new step I’ve taken. In this case, and, I’m sure, in many others, Angela and I are of one mind.

Anyway, here’s the link to that interview, if any of you are interested in it. I’ll go back to my usual smut now (and get that gangbang story finished!) and leave you to think long and hard about what I’ve written here… or to ignore it and think of shoving that long and hard cock of yours into my pussy. Either way, I’m happy. I’m living the life that I want to live.

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